A Prayer

A Prayer

Let us regard...

Not so much the pleasing of men

that they might later be our pleasure,

or not so much witting ourselves lone out of the pen

to enjoy alone the freedom of the pasture,

not so much the storing up of ken

to set ourselves over all men as their pastor.

But more the moment when I slip your glasses off,

quietly, because you are sleeping. 

Let us regard…

Not so much the pursuit of success

or the superlative of style,

not so much the refining of our resume 

or our puffed and breathing profile,

or the flash and glimmer of our product

and its slogan to beguile. 

But more when we were joyfully made fools by the height of our own laughter. 

Let us regard…

Not so much the apartment with the view,

unscrolling the painted backdrop of the set,

or our knowing of the cue,

not letters to heart or lips lush, painted wet, 

or the strength of our performance for those we've never met. 

But more 

when the shout of country thunder 

sent you quickly to my bed,

to the safety of my breath. 

Let us more regard these things,  

not what the market's morrow brings,

instead, have the sparrow's cares (that are her wings)

Who, with mustard trust, by the lilly sings

and plucks the heads of grain. 

Let us regard more 

the suddenness of our fellow

who, among the hard and yet moving river-earth of objects,

is outwardly riven,

offering the inward living gift

given

from beneath that ever migrating welter of things. 

let us settle on this, and call it 

"the great mystery"  and "the subject of all dogma."

and "altissimum". 

Let us not so regard our seeing of the global world;

the having of wonders from men and women that loom

as a landscape built of bricks built of children.

Let us not so easily have these wonders

by the magic of the frame,

or the engine of the plane. 

Let us touch our faces to the ground first,

Let us taste the dirt like Bernadette, 

Let us in the plains await,

Let us only pass through gates

after water and oil has trickled on the head. 

Let us not so regard our owning of the lone room in the tower,

where we keep the rosy flower

by the window sill under lock and key.

not so afraid of the mortal hour

when flesh loses pulse and power

and we'll rest between rock and fruit tree.  

Let us not so regard all these,

Instead, let us ascend the stair case with bruiséd knees,

let us unlock the upper door and drown the key,

let us set the table outside amidst the tugs of breeze,

Let the loaf of bread be broken among the three,

Then let us drink the sap from the maple tree,

And  say 'amen'. 

jordan dejonge.

Here and Now

It was a beautiful Victoria Day long weekend, with ample time for reflection and soaking up the sunlight. Also, I found this: 


Vestigia

I took a day to search for God,
And found Him not. But as I trod
By rocky ledge, through woods untamed,
Just where one scarlet lily flamed,
I saw his footprint in the sod.

Then suddenly, all unaware,
Far off in the deep shadows, where
A solitary hermit thrush
Sang through the holy twilight hush-
I heard His voice upon the air.

And even as I marvelled how
God gives us Heaven here and now,
In a stir of wind that hardly shook
The poplar leaves beside the brook-
His hand was light upon my brow.

At last with evening as I turned
Homeward, and thought what I had learned
And all that there was still to probe-
I caught the glory of his robe
Where the last fires of sunset burned.

Back to the world with quickening start
I looked and longed for any part
In making saving Beauty be...
And from that kindling ecstasy
I knew God dwelt within my heart.

(Bliss Carman)

Flif Flif Flif Very Fast

Song to Alfred Hitchcock and Wilkinson

flif flif flif very fast
is the noise the birds make
running over us.
A poet would say "fluttering"
or
"see-sawing with sun on their wings"
but all it is
is flif flif flif very fast.


Michael Ondaatje
(The Dainty Monster)

Idolatry

It should first be noted that, while most people today would assume that the obverse of belief in God is atheism, this is not the biblical view - and, as I will demonstrate, it is not Niebuhr's view either.The true obverse of the affirmation of God's existence, whether made scientifically or dogmatically, is not the counterfactual, "God does not exist." For only a fool would say "there is no God" (Psalms 53:2), since such a denial could not possibly be proven. How can anyone prove that anyone else does not exist?

Idolatry is the radical obverse of the conviction that God exists because idolatry radically displaces the One God with some other god or gods, and idolaters are as convinced of their other god or gods as theists are convinced of their One God.

- David Novak on "Reinhold Niebuhr", "Idolatry: the Root of All Evil"

Despite the fact that his argument is in one respect not persuasive ("for only a fool would say..." seems to unjustifiably set aside the possibility of real, intellectually determined atheism)*, I find this perspective quite helpful.

This is because I am currently less concerned with finding orthodox[ies], and moreso with the purgation of idolatry from my actions and patterns of thinking. One might argue this presupposes a certain image of God, and I would think this is true. But this is God as a negation, God as an interrogation and a question, "is this [action, thought or belief] really absolute? Have you really here found that 'abiding ground' on which to build'?" and even as accusser and challenger, "you can't stop here! you have not found rest!" 

The God of the Hebrew Scriptures is very frequently a God of negation. A God whose face we are not permitted to see, who gives his name in the riddle of "I am who I am", and whose people consequently wander the desert and dwell in tents. Inscribed into the memory of the Hebrew People is that their God is one who always has them on the move. They eat the Passover with their loins girded, prepared to exit the land of bondage into the land of wandering. And when they do have a homeland, when they finally do build Jerusalem and its temple,  prophets are raised up to critique their ways and their cult. The city is taken away from them, the temple is destroyed. Their city of stone is lost. Paradoxically, the biblical longing is for a city of "living stones". The characeristic hardness of stone comes at the cost of it being inert and inanimate. The desire for a "living stone" is therefore the desire to unite the organic; that is change, impermanence, instability, and its opposite; to find the "still point" in the movement and "dance" of life itself or, conversely, to make that dead-point the site of movement and flux. 

Maybe this is the wisdom in the trope of "Pilgrim People of God". We live in tents wandering with the ark, we yearn for buildings and a proper place where this Presence can rest. Yet, it will only be so in that place where rock and flesh are one together. 

Perhaps if there is anything to take from this post, it's that we should always regard that we have less of God than we imagine we might. And this empty space is the spur in the boot. 

*I suppose we could agree with the Psalmist and say that all people have a god or gods, insofar as all people regard (self consciously or not), with some degree of consistency, some thing, state, feeling, or idea as absolute and the highest determiner of all their actions. We believe in something through our actions and reactions, not necassarily through our creeds.